Taking time off for myself at last
Sometimes I really wonder why I push myself so hard to do the things that I do. It’s not easy staying ahead of the curve and bring myself to the brink each and every time I come to Week 12/13 of a term, or lead up to a Caderas event. Been so busy that I haven’t had time to update my blog since the last triumphant entry back in early February, after Bailamos was over.
If you’re a friend of mine, I suppose you’d like to know how things are between Sharon and I. I think it’s a great blessing that she works near my school – her workplace is literally less than 5 mins walk away from SOB! It’s awesome to be able to pop out of school in the middle of the day after my lessons and be with her for a quick lunch before heading back for whatever I head back for. This convenience probably won’t last forever, but as long as it does, I will appreciate it. It’s a real comfort to have her near me and communicating with her so often, very refreshing…
Because I know she reads this from time to time, I must say this – that Sharon is a very loving and understanding girlfriend (to me) and despite my crazy life she is willing to make sacrifices with regard to her schedule in order to be with me. Also when I can't be with her because of my busyness she understands. Another great thing is that she works while I study, so she’s more open to paying for herself when we go out – I know that the guy is supposed to pay more often than not, but nevertheless I appreciate the fact that she does make an effort to bear the financial cost of dates with me. Something to be said about dating someone older than you…
Well now she’s in Melbourne for holiday with her friends, giving me one precious week to catch up on my work. And I’ve promptly fallen sick with the flu – I write this amid severe cough and loss of voice and the irritating hiccups that seem to accompany my flu every time I catch it. Sickness is a good reminder that I’ve been pushing myself too hard to satisfy everyone else and not taking enough time for myself.
Argh there’s so many things I want to do. Apart from spending more time with Sharon, the unquenchable thirst for knowledge inside me yearns to spend more time with my books too, to get the most out of them before locking them in my bookcase to collect dust after Week 15 of each term. I’m taking so many interesting subjects, but this year I couldn’t find the time to plot through the out-of-syllabus topics to squeeze everything out of the brand-new textbooks that I buy every term. It’s anyone’s guess whether I will have time this summer break to do so – in between taking two summer terms and church activities, I doubt that I will have time to read through my old material and prepare for my third year too. Time moves so fast when one has meaningful things to do.
And to spend more time writing on my blog. The reflective property of my blog has been woefully underused in recent months. Did I really manage 21 blog entries in February 2007? I need to spend more time writing here, about specific issues in specific entries, so as to better focus my thoughts and plan for the future.
And while we’re at it, the foremost topic on my mind right now is academics. Doing a double degree and triple major is not easy (Economics, Operations Management and Business Statistics), but I’ve rushed quite well this first two years and when my third year starts, I would have finished 23 modules and would only have 14 more to go. A tantalizing prospect, by any measure. But once space opens up in my schedule I have the overwhelming desire to fill it up with stuff I think is meaningful. Out of the 20 more modules I can take comfortably, I want to do two Communications modules, an Environmental Economics module and a Poverty and Underdevelopment module – bringing the total up to 18. And then I’m tempted to spend a year on a senior thesis (which allegedly allows me to graduate “with honours”, which would bring the workload right up to the maximum of 20. The only consolation I have is that Caderas will never take up this much time again as it has this year – but that’ll probably be offset by the extra time that I will be devoting to Sharon and church stuff. Meanwhile my family life continues to be underwhelming and neglected.
Another thing I want to do this summer is PLAY GTA IV!!! It’s been sitting on my shelf for months now – I bought it on the day it came out and haven’t had a chance to install it and play it any yet. Utterly depressing. The fourth installment of my favourite game in the entire world and I don’t have the time to even touch it. So pressed.
Start on Econometrics report now, sleep soon. No church for me tomorrow, a rare occurrence indeed. Rest.
If you’re a friend of mine, I suppose you’d like to know how things are between Sharon and I. I think it’s a great blessing that she works near my school – her workplace is literally less than 5 mins walk away from SOB! It’s awesome to be able to pop out of school in the middle of the day after my lessons and be with her for a quick lunch before heading back for whatever I head back for. This convenience probably won’t last forever, but as long as it does, I will appreciate it. It’s a real comfort to have her near me and communicating with her so often, very refreshing…
Because I know she reads this from time to time, I must say this – that Sharon is a very loving and understanding girlfriend (to me) and despite my crazy life she is willing to make sacrifices with regard to her schedule in order to be with me. Also when I can't be with her because of my busyness she understands. Another great thing is that she works while I study, so she’s more open to paying for herself when we go out – I know that the guy is supposed to pay more often than not, but nevertheless I appreciate the fact that she does make an effort to bear the financial cost of dates with me. Something to be said about dating someone older than you…
Well now she’s in Melbourne for holiday with her friends, giving me one precious week to catch up on my work. And I’ve promptly fallen sick with the flu – I write this amid severe cough and loss of voice and the irritating hiccups that seem to accompany my flu every time I catch it. Sickness is a good reminder that I’ve been pushing myself too hard to satisfy everyone else and not taking enough time for myself.
Argh there’s so many things I want to do. Apart from spending more time with Sharon, the unquenchable thirst for knowledge inside me yearns to spend more time with my books too, to get the most out of them before locking them in my bookcase to collect dust after Week 15 of each term. I’m taking so many interesting subjects, but this year I couldn’t find the time to plot through the out-of-syllabus topics to squeeze everything out of the brand-new textbooks that I buy every term. It’s anyone’s guess whether I will have time this summer break to do so – in between taking two summer terms and church activities, I doubt that I will have time to read through my old material and prepare for my third year too. Time moves so fast when one has meaningful things to do.
And to spend more time writing on my blog. The reflective property of my blog has been woefully underused in recent months. Did I really manage 21 blog entries in February 2007? I need to spend more time writing here, about specific issues in specific entries, so as to better focus my thoughts and plan for the future.
And while we’re at it, the foremost topic on my mind right now is academics. Doing a double degree and triple major is not easy (Economics, Operations Management and Business Statistics), but I’ve rushed quite well this first two years and when my third year starts, I would have finished 23 modules and would only have 14 more to go. A tantalizing prospect, by any measure. But once space opens up in my schedule I have the overwhelming desire to fill it up with stuff I think is meaningful. Out of the 20 more modules I can take comfortably, I want to do two Communications modules, an Environmental Economics module and a Poverty and Underdevelopment module – bringing the total up to 18. And then I’m tempted to spend a year on a senior thesis (which allegedly allows me to graduate “with honours”, which would bring the workload right up to the maximum of 20. The only consolation I have is that Caderas will never take up this much time again as it has this year – but that’ll probably be offset by the extra time that I will be devoting to Sharon and church stuff. Meanwhile my family life continues to be underwhelming and neglected.
Another thing I want to do this summer is PLAY GTA IV!!! It’s been sitting on my shelf for months now – I bought it on the day it came out and haven’t had a chance to install it and play it any yet. Utterly depressing. The fourth installment of my favourite game in the entire world and I don’t have the time to even touch it. So pressed.
Start on Econometrics report now, sleep soon. No church for me tomorrow, a rare occurrence indeed. Rest.
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